delicate

So many say that they want me now
But if they only knew what ive done
If they knew all the damaged I caused
Well then they would surely run.
They'd surely say
well you aren't that great
and i'd have to except it
and except my fate
And the one that I want
will he soon leave too?
For I'm trying to change my ways
but I've been a fool
Everytime I start to doubt
this stupidity it comes out
and when I realize what's been done
I try to sweep it up
or I try to run
if only my heart didn't worry like this
I didn't feel it in my head, my legs, my wrists
If only I could take it as it is
if I keep this up, I'll never be his