I just feel like ranting today.

I just feel like ranting today.

I can't seem to articulate the things I mean,
and yet I seem to say everything I shouldn't.
I guess I'm always just saying what's really on my mind, and that frightens people.
I guess people have found a way to cover up some of the things they say, change the words around to make it sound prettier.
My head isn't too good at that.
It says what it wants and what it believes it should.
fifty percent of the time my mouth is kept shut anyhow,
I don't really believe in talking to most of the people I know, I don't know many people I'd actually want to have a conversation with.
I guess I really like to speak with people who have something to say and who intrigue me.
I also need to respect them.
I don't think anyone can intimidate me unless I respect them,
mostly I just seem shy but I'm really uninterested.
I feel like so much more can be said through the body (and it's easier for me).
The eyes, the lips the hands...
than again there aren't many people I'd want to touch, on that level.
I'm not a fan of holding hands, especially if feelings aren't involved.
I feel like it's all a lie, or a cover-up, to make things seem more ok.
Who are we kidding.
I never liked being vulnerable, I never let myself be vulnerable, the possibility of getting hurt or embarassed always scared me.
I've realized there is nothing strong about being invulnerable,
You'll never learn anything.
Actions have consequences, You don't learn if you don't do.
Thankyou, I guess.